A Gift

Today as I sit and think of this "gift" that my father will soon give. It has caused me to reflect on life. Every day truly is a gift! Every minute that we share with each other...each smile and every laugh helps get us each through this life. :) I was able to talk to dad today. Sounds like he was able to spend the morning swimming. It is kind of surreal that he will be going in the morning to donate his kidney. Mom and dad have headed to Salt Lake and have a hotel for tonight. I am sure they will enjoy the calm before the storm. Isn't it interesting how in the world before a big storm there seems to be a moment when everything holds still. Even just for a moment as if it is preparing you for what is to come. That is how I feel about today. :) I went to pick up my son from school today and it hit me. I never told him that his Grandpa was donating his kidney. So I pulled him aside and said Grandpa wasn't going to be home for a while and explained to him what he was doing. He looked at me and said, "I wish you would have told me before...I would have hugged him extra hard." :) Kayden had the idea to send Grandpa hugs in the air for now. When I shared this with dad he said, "Well tell him I will use Grandmas bug net to catch them for now but I want a big hug when I get home. " I loved watching my sons eyes light up with the thought of Grandpa actually catching his hugs in the bug net. :)
Today has been a really long day for me. I think this anticipation of tomorrow morning is starting to get to me. :) Just when I felt like giving into the overwhelming feelings I talked with a good friend. We have this inside joke about super hero capes. When one of us is feeling down we bring up the super hero capes and it seems to change how we look at our day. The idea that we have enough power to concur the world puts a smile on my face every time. :) It was a nice reminder that it is important to laugh. That laughing is a great source or relief for all of us.
I have tried to make my day tomorrow pretty busy. So that I wont have much time to think. Seems like the more I think the more nervous I get. hahaha I think that sitting on the sidelines is a hard thing for me. I never was much for sitting out. I like to be in the thick of things. But maybe this is the lesson that I need to learn. Maybe I need to learn that I cant be in control always. I need to turn it over to my father in heaven. Well that's it for tonight. I will try and write down me feelings after the surgery tomorrow. :)